In the heat of war You're the tyrant who burns our homes And I'm the anarchist Confronting this on my own You're too weak to fight your foes Now I live as your scapegoat We can't hurt anyone else So we hurt each other We thought we lived as one But I have no idea anymore It seems as adversaries That we've been closer than before Living with caution now While all of my thoughts are met with fear Every imperfection Is met with terror since we got here I try to help all this improve While you're denying every move Too afraid to fail ourselves So we fail each other We build and build our humble retreat While it crumbles from beneath Lying in ruins with expressions the same Silently dealing the blame So I try to fix it all While you constantly make it fall I can't remember when We were so much better then But I persevere Through everything I fear So we're stuck in constant war Forgetting what we're fighting for Too afraid to fail ourselves So we fail each other

You shove this rifle in my hands And force me to aim it at my friends You tell me if I let you down You'll make me fire 'til the clip runs out You've burned down my home to make me fight All the shit you can't sort out in your life You're still too weak to do this yourself And I'm too much of a coward to rebel I bite my lips until they bleed 'Cause I'm too terrified to speak Your friends have turn their backs on you You're locked inside forgetting what to do You push me out in into the fold To fight but it it's out of my control I wanted to help you with all of my love But you refuse to believe I give you enough You've taken the safety off the trigger I wish I could stop my loved ones from getting hurt I bite my lips until they bleed 'Cause I'm too terrified to speak Conscripted in to all this mess Our silent days are now our best When you pick fights it makes this worse When I die from this you'll bomb the hearse

We're still stuck in our old ways We're miserable but we don't change I pour all my time to help us out I fear your loss so I stay devout Do you hear me? Do you hear me? You're still denying The feelings I felt Now when I hold you I never feel held The damage's been dealt When you're swallowed whole by all your faults I just get spat on as a result I'm forced to fight with blades too blunt I'm kicked like a dog too tired to hunt You twist my limbs until they break I sew them back after each mistake I tie the rope around my throat You come and kick the chair below Do you hear me? Do you hear me? You're still denying The feelings I felt Now when I hold you I never feel held It would take hours to Explain to you The ways that we need help I'm tempted to forfeit But I'm compelled the damage's been dealt

In an unearthly hour I'm shaken awake But it's worse than before You push me until I fall off my bed Then drag me across the floor I'm trying to breathe with my face in the dirt But you never give me a chance You empty a bottle of wine down my throat And lift me up to dance I'm reeling but still I dance on, and on, and on With every single step that you take Your feet crush all my toes We stumble and fall again and again Until I break most of my bones I'm shoved to the wall and the plates fall down Spreading broken glass everywhere I'm leaving a trail of blood from my feet Then you push me down the stairs You kiss me and help me rise I dance on, and on, and on I'm pinching myself to try to end this I don't care if it hurts cause I just want to quit So throw me on to this bed of nails Too numb to complain The ceiling is sinking closer to me I'll be crushed in these chains Just like every other night I dance on, and on, and on

What's the point of all this fear And this screaming in my ears It won't make all of your problems disappear Why do you aim this gun At my face when I've done nothing wrong It won't change a single thing in the long run We should stop and think Before we sink Lower than we already have Let's calm down Figure this out It might be all we can do I beg for your mercy Please just let it be We've suffered far too long I'm struggling to stay strong So you send me off to war Against my will to settle all your scores But we don't know if it's worth dying for I question if I should go And fight your battles away from home Just to end up killed out there alone I beg for your mercy Please don't make me leave It will only make us hurt More than what it's worth When the bullets pierce my skin I'll close my eyes and I'll breathe in I'll collapse and bleed to death while you stand tall I know the pain will rip straight through But it will never get to you Let's throw our clothes towards the sky Before you ship me out to die

We tried to make it simpler But it ended up even worse I've given up on feigning peace Built up rage will be my curse The sickest thoughts that haunt me Are becoming beautiful I could force a knife into your back Or put a bullet through your skull The weapon that you gave me can pierce your heart I'd do it in a heartbeat if I got the chance I don't care who sees blood on my hands You beat me down so I'm taking a stand I'll never understand if it makes any sense It feels like all I've got for defense I just can't stand keeping this so tense I'll break it out at you I never want to hurt you But I'm pressed by this dark choice When you trash all my effort to help It's not enough to raise my voice As this manifests itself My patience slowly dies The abused becomes the abuser All before your very eyes The hurt you've put upon me will return If I could strangle you I would, I would If I could puncture you I would, I would If I could beat you down I would, I would If I could choke you out I would, I would You will pay what you deserve

I've realized it isn't right To throw the punches in the fight I should have stopped it when I could But it's only getting worse and worse now we're fucked for good What have I done? What have I done? I tried so hard to choke you out But really I deserve it now I tried to drive a blade through you So I point it at myself and now I don't know what to do I have become The terror I've been running from Oh god I'm done

Ever since we moved in here It's been a never-ending fight It was supposed to make it balance But we can't get it right And now you make me want to hurt And you make me want to kill While you're hiding in the bathroom Trying to swallow all those pills Let's not kid ourselves that we can make it like before There's no point in dragging this out anymore Cause you're feed, feeding, feeding The fire that burns you down It's not fair that you can throw this on me And expect that I can fix it all I should have known better Than to answer to your call I'm tired of this useless cycle Of you pushing me off this cliff/edge Just find you at the bottom Catching me and starting again We're sleeping in the same bed But we're feeling miles apart It seemed so simple on paper But it ended up so hard I hate this rifle in my arms And this helmet strapped across my chin This never was the life I choose to live in So I'll throw down this weapon you forced on me To abandon your issues and go free Cause you're feed, feeding, feeding The fire that burns you down So I will leave this fight Regardless who won or lost The facts have settled in The hope just isn't worth the cost

Finally we've split It's for our benefit Being forced into these roles Has taken its toll If I had known at the start We were cursed to someday fall apart I could never truly choose If our love was worth the abuse In hindsight it's so obscure We're the shell of what we were The bridge of our return Lays in ruins, scattered and burned If I had known that our minds Were synchronized to misalign I'm unsure if I would pine To take back all the time So I must confess Let's put it down to rest We've reached the conclusion of This worthless resolve that was our love

It's been 5 weeks since we called it off It never seems quite real I've never known any different I don't know what to feel But I get the sense it's for the greater good After 5 months it all makes sense So many things went wrong We failed to find that we both failed We put it off too long And we both knew but we could never bring it up Now it's 5 years later and we've both moved on A total falling out After we put each other through such hell We're living better now I would not have it any other way 50 years have come and gone Now a mural commemorates The war we forced each other through Just to reach a stalemate In the end we both took so much hurt A century has passed since us And nobody can recognize Anything that marks our strife It's all been vandalized Just as though it never happened at all We thought we were the special ones We thought the endless search was done In time we proved each other wrong Our fall had drawn out far too long 'Cause every fight Put the end in sight With every flag at half mast It's all too plain to see Our time has passed I'll never know why we trade such hurt Lost tempers, neglect, and threatening words I could have died in seconds from your bullet But I slowly bled from the bayonet Took so long to speak of breaking While it lingered on our minds Our thoughts were lost trying to find an answer With words we couldn't find I still can't comprehend Why it took so long to end I watched all of it slip right From my hands and out of sight Remaining hope was drained with every fight So many times things went to shit We said it would be the last Picked ourselves up claiming to be fine Forgetting hope had surely passed I still find it strange We couldn't figure how to change It's hard to justify The things we did, the things we tried It's best call it quits for you and I It's still confusing to tell If this never happened would we be as well? It's always been hard to articulate The feelings I hold of our fate I remember when we lost touch On all of those nights that we drank too much We woke up together sick and hoarse Hungover with all the remorse I see with better eyes That you're now some person I don't recognize Our wine has turned into vinegar Let's break every bottle of hurt The lessons I've managed to save They'll stay with me all the way to the grave I'm cursed with the memory of our regrets Still haunted while you forget Scarred by the faults That caused us to die It's the mark that I wear And I wear it with pride